DOMI'natrix

when zoombies attack...

2008-06-07T17:45:17Z

You are in a mall when the zombies attack.
You have:
1. one weapon.
2. one song blasting on the speakers.
3. one famous person to fight alongside you.

1. my weapon would be the lancer assault riffle with chainsaw or boomshot from gears.
2. the song would be explosive by bond.
3. the famous person i'd want there with me would be harry potter. :p

Writer's Block: Perfect Sandwich

2008-05-27T23:43:31Z

Describe your perfect sandwich, layer by layer.

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*cuban bread.
*mayo.
*mustard.
*salt.
*munster cheese. alot.
*fried egg.
*turkey. (slices.)
*those little tiny fries (like the ones from like un pan con bistec.)
*slices of deli sliced porke.
*little bit of lettuce.
*one slice of tomatoe.

*omg im soooo hungry now.!

add just about anything. i'll eat it.
lol

Writer's Block: The only true question:

2008-05-27T23:29:40Z

What words do you find wise enough to live by?

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NINJAS ^ ^

the most painful thing to do...

2008-05-20T06:21:54Z

....is wait.

Radiohead.

2008-05-07T23:02:49Z

Show was fucking amazing.
Lights where awesome.
House of Cards, my fav song, was played in Encore #3.
Wish it couldve lasted longer. lol.

pics.

the aftermath:

Writer's Block: It's Too Late to Apologize

2008-05-07T22:48:10Z

Has anyone ever done something so horrible to you that "I'm sorry" couldn't fix it?

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unfortunately...

:[

To tame the depression..

2008-04-29T00:04:21Z

SO ITS BEEN KNOWN BY MY CLOSE PPL THAT IVE BEEN VERY DEPRESSED AND SAD FOR ALMOST A MONTH ALREADY. HEARTACHES ARE THE WORSE AND THEYVE HIT ME HARD. I MISS MY LOVE WILLIAM TERRIBLY AND NOT SEEING HIM IS LITERALLY MAKING ME SICK. I'M TRYING, AS MANY KNOW, TO KEEP BREATHING AND KEEP MY MIND BUSY WITH PPL AND HOBBIES. SO IVE DECIDED TO STICK TO A COUPLE OF THINGS THAT MIGHT HELP ME FROM CRYING EVERY OTHER HOUR, EVERYDAY.

AS KNOWN I LOVE MUSIC, ALL MY LIFE IVE BEEN SORROUNDED BY IT. SO I DECIDED TO PICK UP MY GUITAR AGAIN. HAVENT TOUCHED IT FOR OVER 3 YRS... CRAZY. I TOLD WILLIAM I WILL COMMIT TO IT AGAIN AND LEARN MY TABS, THOUGH I KNOW HOW TO READ MUSIC, BUT KNOWING THEM TABS/CORDS IS SO MUCH BETTER THAN READING. SO I'M HOPING TO BUY ME A BETTER GUITAR, PROLLY A NEW IBANEZ OR EPIPHONE ELECTRIC ACOUSTIC GUITAR. I ACTUALLY REALLY REALLY WANT TO GET INTO IT. SO THAT WILL BE MY TREAT, FROM ME TO MY MIND. I HAVE A COUPLE SONGS I WOULD LOVE TO LEARN ON THE GUITAR ("LOVE SONG: BY SARA BAREILLES, "REALIZE" BY COLBIE C., AMONG OTHERS)

I ALSO WANNA SING MORE. PROLLY WRITE SOME TUNES, WRITE SOME MUSIC TO ACCOMPANY IT WITH THE GUITAR. I'V BEEN DIEING TO KARAOKE. I WANNA SING INFRONT OF A LARGE CROWD. THE RUSH IS AMAZING. SO I'LL PROLY GET INTO THAT TOO.

IMMA GET BACK INTO GAMING. I FINALLY HAVE MY INTERNET UP. TOMRW I GO WIRELESS, WHICH IS COOL. SO I CANT WAIT FOR THAT... GONNA TRY RO. YAMI AND WILLIAM SAYS ITS PRETTY COOL, SO WE'LL SEE. PROLY FINISH MY GUILDWARS.. WE'LL SEE.

SOMETHING ELSE I'M GETTING OUT OF MY WHOLE SITUATION IS THAT, I GUESS BECAUSE I'M SO DOWN AND SAD, I REALLY DONT FEEL LIKE EATING... I FEEL LIKE THROWING UP ALL THE TIME (BCUZ I ALMOST FUCKED UP MY LIVER AND RUINED MY STOMACH WITH MY LITTLE "OD" INCIDENT..STUPID ME) SO IVE BEEN LOOSING WEIGHT CRAZY. IMMA START WORKING OUT ALOT. WORK MY ASS TO THE GROUND... ANYTHING TO KEEP ME FROM CRYING.

IVE BEEN INTO DRAWING. READING. AND JUST THINKING TOO MUCH.

I MISS HIM SO SO MUCH. IT HURTS TO KNOW HE'S WITH HER. HURTS TO KNOW HE'S NOT WITH ME. IDK IF HE'S THINKING ABOUT ME, DOES HE EVER? HE SAYS HE DOES. HE SAYS HE STILL FEELS THE SAME FOR ME, BUT HE'S GIVING THAT SHITTY "RELATIONSHIP" A LAST GO. I PRAY AND HOPE TO GOD THAT HE REALIZES SOONER THAN LATER THAT WE'RE MEANT TO BE... FOR OVER 5 YRS... AND HE KNOWS IT. HE'S AWARE OF THAT KNOWN FACT, HE ADMITS IT. I WILL WAIT. I WONT GIVE UP.

UPDATE: OPERATION HELLO KITTY (CODE) IS ON THE MOVE, HOPEFULLY THAT GOES WELL...

FOR NOW, WHILE I WAIT, I WILL OCCUPY MY MIND WITH FRUITFUL THINGS, THINGS THAT SOMEHOW BENEFIT ME.

SO, NO MATTER HAPPENS, I HAVE, AM AND WILL CONTINUE TO LOVE HIM SO SO MUCH. HE KNOWS IT TO. HE KNOWS HE' HAS PLAYED WITH MY HEART AND KNOWS HE IS THE SOLE OWNER OF IT AT THE MOMENT. I CAN ONLY HOPE. FOR NOW I TRY TO TAME MY DEPRESSION...

Writer's Block: I'm So Excited

2008-04-25T22:54:00Z

What most excites you about the way you're living your life right now?

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absolutely nothing....sadly
:[

I try to Breath...

2008-04-24T03:08:26Z

Breathing

(Inhale)
Tears begin to flood my face like a cup under a
Running faucet well after the water has reached the rim
My heart leaping to my throat,
Getting caught,
Squeezing,
Twisting,
Tearing.
My throat contracting around the emotions that threaten
To leap up & out of my lips,
My stomach,
Rumbling,
Wrestling,
Knotting.
My hands quiver as I reach up to blot the tiny tearsdrops
Leaving footprints down my cheeks.
The path that awaits me
Suddenly seems like a pilgrimage
One foot,
Next foot,
Step,
Step.
I see you
(I see her)
You smile
I smile
(She leaves)
You ask how I am
(I lie)
I reply I'm fine
(Eventhough my heart has just crept up into my mouth and is jumping up & down on my tongue)
I want to say I miss you
Let you know that every moment I'm awake I think of you
I want you to know that I miss your arms,
Your smile,
Your lips.
I want you to know that.
(Im incomplete)
My body hurts,
My soul bleeds.
I ask how you are
(Hoping against all hope that you'll tell me what I want to hear)
You reply
(Your answer not including that you miss me, that you miss my arms, my lips, my touch)
My eyes attempt to strip you down to your soul
(Searching for what I once knew so well)
They get lost
(But find their way back to reality when they gaze over the ever-fading hickey just above the collar of the shirt I bought you)
My heart leaps off the end of my tongue,
Wanting you to see the way you've hurt me
Wanting you to hurt the same way too.
My heart falls to the ground
(She calls you)
You hastily say "good-bye"
(As you trot over to her)
Stomping,
Squishing,
Mutilating,
My vulnerable, fallen heart.
(Not even pausing long enough to scrape it off the bottom of your shoe, like a discarded piece of gum)
She wraps her arms around your neck
Brings her lips to yours...
(Your ears still turn red)
People pass, as if I don't even exist
( I want to cry, scream, shout)
I want someone to find my heart
Bring it back
Piece it together.
I turn away
Hoping that one day it won't hurt
(As much)
And hoping that I will again be able to call you
And have you come over to me
Be able to buy you shirts that match your mood
(And leave the telltale hickey just above your collar)
And will still be able to make your ears turn red from the friction of our lips.
I walk away
Knowing my heart will not follow
(Exhale)

Hopeful hopefully...

2008-04-22T00:51:01Z

So its been very caotic, stressful, crazy, sad, happy, depressing, weird and just a "wtf" type 2 weeks...

I almost died, no surprise, and things are still unsure and unclear. No matter what continues to happen, i still have some hope that things will turn out good and make me happy/smile soon. I miss william when he's not with me, so very much. The very little that I am with him is amazing. It feels like he never left. I love him so much.

Yesterday we went to the beach, big shock, since we all are anti-beach people, but we did, we went. It was fun. I had a good time with my William, Yami and her William. The night ended marvelously, though at the end I had to do the toughest thing and say "goodbye". I hope to see him soon. I hope.

So here are some pics from yesterday.

Hope... thats all i have

:]

Drive My Soul

2008-04-15T16:23:36Z

Seems somebody put out the moon
Now the road is a minefield
I can’t follow the way she moves
I can’t see past the shadows
You make the darkness disappear
I feel found when you stay near
I know where I am when you are here
My way becomes so clear

When you are gone
Will I lose control?
You are the only road I know
You show me where to go
Who will drive my soul?

Seems somebody burned out the signs
I can’t expect the hard curves
There is no borders
There are no lines
How can I know where to turn?
You make the street lights reappear
I feel bright when you stand near
I know what I am when you are here
My place becomes so clear

When you are gone
Will I lose control?
You’re the only road I know
You show me where to go
Who will drive me soul?

Will I lose control?
You’re the only road that I know
You show me where to go
Who will drive my soul?
Drive my soul

When you’re gone
Will I lose control?
You’re the only road I know
You show me where to go
When you’re gone
Will I lose control?
You’re the only road I know
You show me where to go
Who will drive my soul?

-Lights

I wait.

2008-04-14T05:35:30Z

Life....at a moment, I thought was perfect, but like everything, I was wrong. I sit here and wait. Wait for the day he'll make me smile again. Though smile I do whenever I see him, talk to him or even think of him. He knows I'm here... just please, hurry.

I love you baby.

best feeling ever....

2008-04-07T03:08:47Z

Sitting/cuddling next to my ♥ william, on my comfy couch, while he plays Brawl with the guys :]

Id give anything to stay like this •.•

me..the hopeless romantic

2008-04-06T05:28:26Z

Hopeless romantics believe in love and fairy tales. They dream of roses and candlelight, walking on the beach at sunset, and dancing in the rain. They know that somewhere out there is a knight in shining armour ready to carry them off, or a beautiful princess waiting to be carried off into the sunset. Hopeless romantics believe in true love, and the eternal bliss that comes from being united with one's soulmate is what they crave most.
Hopeless romantics recognize in themselves the ability to love infinitely deeply, and they ache to be loved with the same fervor in return. When a hopeless romantic has someone to lavish their affection on, lavish they do. Hopeless romantics sometimes write love letters full of poetic phrases and send flowers, but mostly they try to find a thousand thoughtful little ways to show their love. They make romance into an art form.
Hopeless romantics wear rose-colored glasses. In their eagerness to find "the one," a hopeless romantic may either be extraordinarily picky or not discerning enough. Hopeless non-romantics think that hopeless romantics are delusional and too intense. Other than the seeming futility in the search for a soulmate, nothing frustrates a hopeless romantic more than a significant other who does not understand the hopeless romantic temperament.
Sometimes, in this cynical world, it seems like the population of hopeless romantics is declining. One has only to look at the number of movies and songs about love that are currently popular to prove otherwise. It may also seem that there are many more hopelessly romantic women than romantic men. This isn't surprising in a culture where a man might get snapped at for opening the door for a woman. Men and women often have different ways of expressing their emotions, and the number of hopelessly romantic men is probably much higher than anyone could tell simply by observation.
Hopeless romantics are the idealists, the sentimental dreamers, the imaginative, and the fanciful. They give the world its once-upon-a-times and happily-ever-afters. Hopeless romantics may have their feet on the ground, but their souls fly somewhere over the rainbow.

wise words

2008-04-05T14:08:17Z

John Mayer (my <3)

my penguin...my lover!

2008-04-04T22:45:22Z

this is my boyfriend!

at islands of adventure

i <33 him!!

So I want...

2008-04-04T22:44:29Z

So we live in a world where needs and wants are at times confused with each other. What I trully 'need' I work hard to get and take care of. So far, all I've needed, I've succeeded in getting. I need my family, my friends, oxygen, 'basic needs', health and love. So far I have all those, thank god.
Here's what id love to have...my wants:
1. I want to move out.
2. I want to travel.
3. I want flowers.
4. I want to pay off my cars.
5. I want to sleep.
6. I want to watch all Stars Wars movies back to back.
7. I want some kick ass sun glasses.
8. I want to go to more concerts.
9. I want an etch-a-sketch.
10. I want to get married.
11. I want to start a family (eventually)..one baby boy :]
12. I want to go roller skating.
13. I want to swim with dolphins.
14. I want to cook for my boyfriend. (I will babe!)
15. I want to sing/kareoke.
16. I want to meet John Mayer.
17. I want to pay off my debts.
18. I want to see snow.
19. I want to take dance classes.
20. I want to kick some ass on a fighting video game (but all my friends/boyfriend are amazing :/)
21. I want to be romanticized.
22. I want to go on a hot air balloon ride.
23. I want to be kissed under the rain.
24. I want to go on a picnic.
25. I want to meet his friends.
26. I want to baby sit Michelle.
27. I want to be happy :]

Writer's Block: Gotcha.

2008-04-01T22:58:58Z

What is the best April Fools' Day joke you've ever fallen victim to?

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NONE cuz i'm amazing!

Writer's Block: Sick Day

2008-03-31T20:30:22Z

What is your favorite thing about being sick?

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not eating..therefore loosing weight :]

Quick Update

2008-03-31T20:23:21Z

So...last week was very...weird... good and bad.

Bad: i thought that once again id be heart broken. for one day i felt the pain ive been used to for so long. but he came back and made it better.

good: resting. went to islands of adventure with my william. we had a blast. i <3 him SO much! he has been the only one able to convince me to get on all those crazy roller coasters. i tell ya, the effect he has on me.

thanks: i wanna thank my main biatch Yami and her William for being there for me when i need it the most. thanks for drivin me back home when im pissed drunk. you guys are just AMAZING.

hopeful: i can only wish for things to get better. i wanna be happy for a looooong period of time. i know life will have its rough patches but we can make it through. i only pray to God for happy times ahead.

TE QUIERO MI PENGUIN

i'll try to update again.

<33

Writer's Block: Good Catch

2008-03-21T18:34:02Z

Do you have a "catch phrase" for which you are known?

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"TYPE THING"

idk..lol...but I say that alot!

and SUKR!

Writer's Block: Greatest Accomplishment

2008-03-19T16:59:58Z

What is your greatest accomplishment? What was the journey to get there?

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My greatest accomplishment, SO FAR, has been surviving all the turmoil life presented me with. Getting back on my feet. Being able to smile once again.

10 Random facts...cuz Yami says so!

2008-03-15T17:09:29Z

So Yami is pestering me to post 10 random facts about myself.... i'll try my bestest

:]

1. I am terrified of windows.

2. I was once engaged. (BOOO)

3. I hugged an Orangutan once. :]]

4. I am horrible at deciding.

5. My boyfriend William Wong is half chinese...YUMMMM!!!

6. I was the second oldest peson in my graduating class (out of 526 kids)

7. Ive almost drowned twice...as in rescue/hospital involved. Serious shit.

8. I DETEST/HATE milk!! O.o#

9. I'm hypoglycemic.

10. I cry often :[ lol

HAPPY YAMI??!?!?!??111?!??!3343?!!!

"SAMSON" -REGINA SPEKTOR

2008-03-12T21:51:59Z

You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first, I loved you first
Beneath the sheets of paper lies my truth
I have to go, I have to go
Your hair was long when we first met

Samson went back to bed
Not much hair left on his head
He ate a slice of wonder bread and went right back to bed
And history books forgot about us and the bible didn't mention us
The bible didn't mention us, not even once

You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first , I loved you first
Beneath the stars came falling on our heads
But there just soft light, there just soft light
Your hair was long when we first met

Samson came to my bed
Told me that my hair was red
He told me i was beautiful and came into my bed
Oh I cut his hair myself one night
A pair of dull scissors and the yellow light
And he told me that I'd done alright
and kissed me till the morning light, the morning light
and he kissed me till the morning light

Samson came back to bed
not much hair left on his head
Ate a slice of wonderbread and went right back to bed
Oh, we couldn't bring the columns down
Yeah we couldn't destroy a single one
And history books forgot about us
And the bible didn't mention us, not even once

You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first

My <3

2008-03-12T20:20:22Z

"Love is when the other person's happiness is more important than your own."
-H. Jackson Browne

I want him happy. In the process of doing so, he makes me happy.

DOMI'natrix

when zoombies attack...

Writer's Block: Perfect Sandwich

Writer's Block: The only true question:

the most painful thing to do...

Radiohead.

Writer's Block: It's Too Late to Apologize

To tame the depression..

Writer's Block: I'm So Excited

absolutely nothing....sadly:[

I try to Breath...

Hopeful hopefully...

Drive My Soul

I wait.

best feeling ever....

me..the hopeless romantic

wise words

my penguin...my lover!

So I want...

Writer's Block: Gotcha.

Writer's Block: Sick Day

Quick Update

Writer's Block: Good Catch

Writer's Block: Greatest Accomplishment

10 Random facts...cuz Yami says so!

"SAMSON" -REGINA SPEKTOR

My <3

absolutely nothing....sadly
:[